I get some drugs by all the mistakes that I made in the past The scariest part of this rap game is how long Ima last & be counting that cash I look in the mirror I see fear in my eyes Every time I smile I'm telling a lie If I'm being honest I wanna cry man I wanna die I was a kid, I was a child Every decision I made it was wild I got some haters they want me dead Hopefully I never make them smile Who's my friend who do I trust I trust god that's my dawg Am I a bad person just because I fucked up and I broke the law No, I'm not, I got a heart I'll admit that I wasn't smart I had a role in the movie They saw something, but then I lost my part Yeah, it hurt It made me feel like a piece of dirt But every time I tried nothing ever worked Look who I've become Look at what I've done I feel so numb Life isn't fun I'm on a mission all by myself I think I need help The only reason that you didn't know is 'cause I keep it to myself The only reason that you didn't know is 'cause I keep it to myself Listen to these lyrics I need help, I need help Lately I been suicidal, thinking 'bout killing myself I pray to god, show me the way Show me the light, I'm a thief in the night If you ever ask for my advice, I'll probably tell you that everything would be alright But the truth is I don't even believe the words that are coming right out of my mouth Money the root of all evil, I'm thinking of burning my house down Down to the ground when no one's around My mind, my body, my soul is lost And they all know where to be found Maybe they're just out of town I hope I see them again I'm losing all of my friends Yeah I sin but I repent They don't know what I have been Yeah I did a lot of evil Yeah I did a lot of evil But when I make music like this song I make it for the people Look who I've become Look at what I've done I feel so numb Life isn't fun I'm on a mission all by myself I think I need help The only reason that you didn't know is 'cause I keep it to myself The only reason that you didn't know is 'cause I keep it to myself I need help, I need help, I need help I said, I need help, I need help, I need help I need help, I need help, I need help The only reason that you didn't know is 'cause I keep it to myself