It's so hard to pacify All of these thoughts inside Changing up another lie Better if you still Were wishing me to go to hell I'll take you all as well Loving you while hating me Was it all just a dream --- Just a dream--- But you don't have to love me Cause I could just care less There's been times when you would crucify me Or better yet be your second guess And I find it quite disturbing How I wake to find, You're not sleeping here anymore. And do you find it quite unquieting How you wake to find I've been whispering at your door It was just a dream Just a dream I've given my all every night I have given my will to Relinquish my soul If I had not where would I be It has become my mother Become my family Sitting in my own blue garden Staring out my beautiful blue house These crown of thorns grow heavier While you all taste the spice Did you forget my sacrifice