Crash the bumper car Cry in the rain I hate everything The birds singing the sun the beautiful rain I hate the blossom snow I hate time 'Cause it's dragging me through it One heavy step at a time It's not me behind that smile It's who you want to see But I'm not recognizable That's someone I've become, I've learned to be Is it irreversible Can I find a way back to me Can I change things Or is it impossible? I feel the need to explain I don't want to be the cliché But I can't help myself There's no escaping the truth It's not me behind that smile It's who you want to see But I'm not recognizable That's someone I've become, I've learned to be To protect the sinner To cover up my flaws To hide from scrutiny To allow me the space to discover more To be undercover To spy on the human race To diminish my body To diminish my mind and my face It's not me behind that smile It's who you want to see But I'm not recognizable That's someone I've become, I've learned to be