One, two One, two Born under the thunder Thrown onto the waves Told to rise above the clouds To find my brighter days I don't remember when it happened But I remember how it felt Something slipped away And I became somebody else In the summer stars, I see Someone I used to be Just a kid again With the sky in my hands Flying free I gave up on El Dorado So I started painting stones Lived under a life so big I shrunk into my clothes Talking to my shadow Mumbling in the night Covered up the windows 'Cause the light would hurt my eyes And in notebook twenty-three There's a boy I used to be Stuck in his head Picking bugs from his bed And dying to be free I ejected from the jungle Hallelujah, peace at last But once I got out of the woods I thought I never would look back And I hate that it still lingers And I hate that it's this hard Longing for the very things That scare you in the dark In the creaking door, I hear Those shadows reappear They try to pull me in But now I'm tied to the wind And I'm blowing out of here I don't wanna be a preacher I don't wanna be a saint I just came here with the word That you can learn from all the pain Whatever may be Heaven However you believe Something circled in and pulled me out And I got clean