The solitude of space Was my only saving grace I saw you digging me a grave Couldn't move far enough away Footsteps in reverse From a blessing to a curse I see you blowing kisses at me While I'm crawling in quicksand Howling like a wolf at the moon never felt more alive Focused sniper eye All senses raw My heart on a skillet Pickled brain in a fat jar Dressed in funeral black Roses on a stone Here I come to die And I die alone Here I feel so welcome Here I am at peace Here I'll come to die Here I'll be released You keep digging me down And I keep crawling up and out Keep crawling, crawling up and out Toward the light illuminating Calling my name in my mother's voice Telling me to keep crawling Toward the light that will lead me back home Solitary confinement If only in my head Tranquility revoked Peace of mind left dead You are motivated Compelled by artificial means No feeling no beliefs Just an overwhelming desire to end me Dressed in funeral black Roses on a stone Here I come to die And I die alone Here I feel so welcome Here I am at peace Here I'll come to die Here I'll be released I keep crawling out through the dirt Up to the pale light of this starry night As you shower me in earth I advance toward rebirth Accustomed to chaos Relentless in nature with fate carved in my skin I feel the slow change consuming me from out and within Couldn't move far enough away Couldn't move far enough away