Lately I been starin' at myself
Lately I been runnin' from these problems
I been prayin' that these substances would help, yeah
I'm up late with the goons and the goblins
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight, yeah
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
All these thoughts can make it hard to sleep
I'm overthinkin' but I know inside it's not that deep
Lately I been workin' so fuckin hard I don't stop to breathe
Talkin' to this devil on my shoulder so it's not just me
It haunts my dreams to think about what I've overcome
It's ironic when the liquor store closes that's when I open up
I know they judge for all of the shit I've done and they hold a grudge
It's hard for me to focus I'm so fucked up I'm goin' numb
I'm so in love with this music shit I could never stop it
I never wanted to dumb it down to be trendin' topic
You can't enjoy your wins until you finally accept your losses
A stressful process like how is this all I ever wanted, yeah
I try to analyze the game
Takin notes on what these artists do to strategize for fame
I only do this shit so I don't have to hide my pain
But, lately I feel crazy only half the time I'm sane, I'm sayin'
Lately I been starin' at myself
Lately I been runnin' from these problems
I been prayin' that these substances would help, yeah
I'm up late with the goons and the goblins
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight, yeah
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
All these thoughts I got are killin' me
I keep on havin' dreams that I been noddin' off a pill or 3
Y'all talk a lot cuz y'all don't really wanna watch the kids succeed
Unfortunate of course it's cuz y'all not at all as ill as me
But... I'd be a liar to say I'm perfect
I'm successful but I'm still out here trying to find a purpose
I'm in the spotlight but I'm hidin' behind these curtains
To be honest I'm like this cuz I'm trying not to be nervous, yeah
So I guess that just makes me vulnerable
I'd rather be myself than be fake and I think that's honorable
I had to face my fears 'til impossible was illogical
The type of shit I've been through you can't fix with just a doctor's note
They say I'm a role model to youth
Cuz they all watch what I do when I go hard in the booth
But I'm an addict keep it real that ain't so far from the truth
But I'm honest and I know there's a whole lot still to prove
Lately I been starin' at myself
Lately I been runnin' from these problems
I been prayin' that these substances would help, yeah
I'm up late with the goons and the goblins
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight, yeah
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
Lately I been starin' at myself
Lately I been runnin' from these problems
I been prayin' that these substances would help, yeah
I'm up late with the goons and the goblins
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight, yeah
I'm so fucked up I can't see straight
The goons and the goblins...
