There's that feeling
I won't be here for long
'Cause there just ain't no fixing
Everything that's wrong
And there's no going
No, there's no going home
'Cause home's been forgotten
For some time spent alone
And my loved ones
They don't call me at all
But they say that they love me
So I tighten my jaw
And I fall
Back into the weeds
I don't think that it's selfish
For me to be me
But my music
It don't heal me no more
It got twisted and mangled
For some bills on the board
And my lover
Well, I left her alone
I got lost in my purpose
Then my purpose went cold
I'm a failure
I'm a fucking black hole
I bought into a liar
And my future got sold
Now I'm tired
Of thorns in my side
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna die
But it's getting old
Oh, I'm getting old
Now I'm stuck on the shoulder
And not even halfway to home
And I'm halfway to Kansas
And not even halfway to whole
So I summon my demons
'Cause there's no one here I know
And I'm halfway to dying
And not even halfway to whole
