Doing drugs when I was twelve on my skateboard and my BMX Lost Juice WRLD, lost Mac Miller, lost Lil Peep, lost DMX I should be dead, I should be dead, I am not asking a question All of the money invested, all of the dope I ingested Almost went over the edge, know that it's not a suggestion Some just can't handle the pressure, are suffering from the depression The Grim Reaper is waiting patiently to walk us through death's door The Grim Reaper is waiting patiently to walk us through death's door Can feel my spirit, rising body, I am comatose Lying lifeless, I took it too far, now I've overdosed That's what woulda happened if I didn't say it's over, bro Had to leave, everyone I knew become a lonely ghost So close, my mouth foaming, my skin purple, my lips blue Can't really say that I'm surprised with all the drugs that I ripped through Rest in peace to all the fallen soldiers in the rap game But all of us are playing with our lives like it's a crap game I should be dead, I should be dead, I am not asking a question All of the money invested, all of the dope I ingested So close, my mouth foaming, my skin purple, my lips blue Can't really say that I'm surprised with all the drugs that I ripped through I can feel myself slowly floating from my body I hear children laughing in my head, I think it's over probably Tug of war, angels pulling at me might be too late Demons' arms are grasping at me, pulling me to hell's gate I'm not sure which way I'm going 'cause I'm filled with self-hate Suicide by taking too much of something that felt great Screaming while I'm crying 'cause the pain is too unbearable The great gift in life and I just ruined it, it's terrible I should be dead, I should be dead, I am not asking a question Almost went over the edge, know that it's not a suggestion All of the money invested, all of the dope I ingested Some just can't handle the pressure, are suffering from the depression