I spoke without a stutter through the middle of first grade Until my little world came apart When I overheard my father saying that he just couldn't stay And my speech broke the same day as my heart They wondered if I did it for attention But I think I couldn't get the question out Wasn't I worth staying for? Wasn't I worth staying for? More than 45 years later I still see him at the door Wasn't I worth staying for? We were married up in Washington where the Winter felt like Spring And our love seemed as endless as that sky So how could we know the cold that other winters would bring Or the million ways our promises could die But I guess that I'm still haunted by the question Now that there are no more papers left to sign Wasn't I worth staying for? Wasn't I worth staying for? Time could've made us feel like we weren't strangers anymore Wasn't I worth staying for? I know pain will be transmitted if it doesn't get transformed Though it's not what I intended I did other people harm And each time that I tried to love I returned to the scene of the crime I did my own share of leaving, leaving a trail of wreckage behind A week ago I couldn't sleep, I was drowning in my shame If I could've ended it I would But in the middle of that darkness, somehow I knew God came And stayed with me until I understood Wasn't I worth staying for? Wasn't I worth staying for? I carry it in my body like it's shrapnel from a war And the only way to heal that kind of wound Is to trust the love I'm hearing in the kind voice of the Lord Saying I'm worth staying for Worth staying for