Held in hands, a warm cup 
Of skin always taken in by peers 
And friends and the heightened fears 
Over the years 
Now I know I'm not like everyone 
  
In this head I see the ground 
You came from, unknown, undug 
From where you were staying in 
A backyard bed until 
We came together 
  
Raspberry, in my hand 
You feel alright but I don't 
Know if I am 
I can't change 
What I am right now, but 
I'll be fine in the next life 
  
I know I can say, I'm honest 
With myself and with 
My red tasty gem 
And sure they will try, but 
They can't take away 
My secret loving friend 
  
And on a good day, my mind 
Is like the country...green wide open 
A breath of zen that's nice 
On the eyes, lonely, without a prayer 
  
Take the trip that I have 
I am at risk 
But I guess you know... 
  
Explosions 
From the goldfish bowl 
Visions 
Of blue girls crying stars 
The more the garden sings 
The harder it gets to stay in 
There are a lot of choices 
So many voices ruling me 
So many of them at once 
Yelling, "Everything's a mess"...I know