Kill the lights I spent 20 days away and I can't promise that I've changed I'm still staring into space like all day I'm still working without gain I'll take another to the face And I'll find anyone to blame except me Finding cracks in what I've built And I can't shake all of the guilt Tell myself that I deserve it always And like a flower watch me wilt And like some ice you'll watch me melt Sit in the corner while I'm sulking in shame Youngburial, thank you for the goddamn party Youngburial I spent 20 days reflecting I'm relying on these vices I've been paranoid and stressing lately I made my money by my venting And I burned through it real messy Lost the plot and now I'm aging quickly Finding cracks in what I built And I've been trying not to tilt I'll find solace in a bender this week Maybe if I disappear all of my errors will seem clear And I can finally rest my head peacefully Lifegodd