Depressing thoughts in the middle of the night
Holding the tears in my eyes
I feel like a failure sometimes
It's not always easy, sometimes I wanna die
It doesn't matter
That there's no color in my life, only blue
I always run away but there's no use
I wish I could say to you
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter
I'll never get back what I lost
I let it creep in, back in my thoughts
I wasn't bothered 'cause I didn't know
How devastating it really is
I know it is
I know it is
My thoughts keep me up
Late at night
The things that I've been through
Haunt me sometimes
A life of abuse
I'm traumatized
It's too much pain
Sometimes I wanna die
It doesn't matter
That there's no color in my life, only blue
I always run away but there's no use
I wish I could say to you
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter
