Right back at square one
It's like I never left
Like the night returned to morning
An endless cycle of self
(Repeating over and over again)
Nothing but memories left on repeat
They saturate my bloodstream
They haunt me in my sleep
A virus
That I tried to deny
Seeping from beneath
Strangling my cries
You don't know
Oh, but I do
How the silence fucking haunts you
When you step from out of view
Oh, now you'll see
When my eyes go dark
It was always me
Now I'm right back at the starting line
All my progress has gone
Holding on to wasted time
The hours turn to seconds
I'm counting everyone
I'll never find a savior
Under my own loaded gun
Addicted to the pain, except for my disdain
Disgusted with the man who shares my face
Standing in the mirror day after day
(Addicted to my own misery
You only saw the end)
I saw where it began
Self-destructive by my fucking nature
Self-indulgence is the only way out, fuck
Buried underneath the weight of things I couldn't change
