I figured out in college, I tend to get impulsive When I feel like numbing my pain I'm unapologetic, 'bout maxing out my credit To pay for the vices I crave Sitting inside of my favorite salon Jenny knows what kind of color I want Didn't expect to be feeling this numb What have I done I wanna grow to be someone I love Look in the mirror and feel like enough Now all the damage is done 'Cause I'm two shades blonder and still no fun I casted out my demons, by emotional eating Now I don't fit my favorite clothes I miss multiple exes, tonight I'll probably text them To pretend I'm not so alone Sitting inside of my favorite salon Jenny knows what kind of color I want Didn't expect to be feeling this numb What have I done I wanna grow to be someone I love Look in the mirror and feel like enough Now all the damage is done 'Cause I'm two shades blonder and still no fun Ripping out pages in Vogue magazine Should I try copper or aquamarine This platinum princess is still dead inside Whoever said blondes have more fun fucking lied I wanna grow to be someone I love Look in the mirror and feel like enough Now all the damage is done 'Cause I'm two shades blonder and still no fun