It's been a minute since I thought about it, let alone talk about it seen the darkest clouds and wonder why the Lord allowed it rain pouring down, umbrella? I got caught without it bet that I'd get wet with it so I could walk without it let's not talk about if grandma's good… awkward silence swimming in the hospital sheets she saw her daughter drown in grandpa's gone, she calls me to talk about him can't understand what she's saying, I'm just nodding, smiling and laughing whenever she laughs, I know she knows it so we going through the same song and dance… dosey doeing I give you my heart, I know it's broken, it's supposed to open it doesn't, I know it's closed but it wasn't always that way, it took a bad day Danny, you better man up or whatever dads say didn't give my mom enough presents, regret my past ways future looks brighter, for now I'm where the shadow casts saying Never know what you got until it's long gone singing the wrong song but it still sounds good to me we gon' take the long way home for this one for this one we gon' take the long way home Then it became a question of what means more to me I'd marry Marilyn Monroe, ignore the Norma Jeanes can't wear normal jeans, barely can afford these things was never 1 2 count my blessings rocking Jordan 3s thank God 4 this lean, sort of seems appropriate they call it lean, I use it as a crutch, wonder what's broken it's up to my lungs and my liver, my heart had enough bad enough I'm bad at love, no one never had the guts to tell me love ain't there or for that matter that it was this never had a daddy stuff added up am I bad at math or what? better with words though better at getting to 7-11 than stepping in church yo needed my herb rolled up in something that burn slow church folk only told me go to hell and burn slow words don't hurt though after a glass of merlot mine start to slur, won't forget what I heard though Do you lie to see me smile like I do? don't answer that don't answer that (repeat)