Yea, yea Look I'm tired of drive bus And niggas with no drive That's down to ride and riot And bringing down my environment Can't walk to the store to buy vitamins without my iron And a fresh shirt that's ironed Cause if I'm dyin' then I'm flyin' into heaven impressive If it my time, then I at least want to look good in my hood The same colors as the signs is The ones that leave your sister cryin' with Your mother Unc, pops, and brother See when I leave the house I make sure I tell them I love ya Remember I was 9 or 10 I wouldn't even say that I liked em Cause my parents would say they love each other then fight again Confused 8 year old me with a knife in hand Her throat in his She ain't innocent neither Life will teach you You should never try to fight a man Where do I begin to tell you why I'm gettin high again Why I'm fuckin' crying again Young thinking about killing them both to stop the violence Man I look good but I'm not okay When you living in the hood Where them shots gone spray When your house not a home Know you lose your soul As a boy they tell you it's not okay to cry To cry Cops, guns drawn front lawn Pointed at my pops and moms Whats going on Not no gang shit Vile and domestic cars Neighbors done heard it all Late night in my room sad Wiping tears on my durag Cops asking "Which out of the two had hands on who first?" Officer I had no idea This flu hurt I been sleep this whole time, that's why I'm crying They know that I'm lying They already don't care and feel like I been wasting their time So they leave my bedroom Convict my moms for the crime I know she felt betrayed It was all in her eyes My father had scars, but she thought I chose no sides But matter fact I chose both sides Cause I chose none But trust me I done seen everything that y'all both done But out of all that I seen Whether nightmare or dream The one that hurt most of all Was your son I look good but I'm not okay When you living in the hood Where them shots gone spray When your house not a home Know you lose your soul As a boy they tell you it's not okay to cry To cry