I took a Mazda to California Friends might text but they don't come through, yeah Stone cold mug like a walking coma Bloodshot eyes, try to hide my mood 'Cause I'm so done Ain't had a house in a whole month Signed up for lust 'cause I throw love Thrown up I think my vice got control of Every pipe dream that I might try to hold up Mom, come pick me up All the kids here are doing drugs And I'm tired and alone A nomad who misses home And I think these Pills don't pick me up Catching my tears in solo cups And I'm casually close To leaving you all a note And I mean that I'm overstimulated Serotonin levels are dipping, I need ventilation Seen a face inside of my drink while overmedicating Home was the air inside my lungs, I miss my intubation Just something else I left behind to catch this dream I'm chasing I bite my tongue with my hand up Weighed down by options like I forgot how to stand up Man up, swallow your pride like it's Fanta 'Cause life shatters dreams like a dad shatters Santa Mom, come pick me up All the kids here are doing drugs And I'm tired and alone A nomad who misses home And I think these Pills don't pick me up Catching my tears in solo cups And I'm casually close To leaving you all a note And I mean that