When I leave it's still raining
I walk into the the bar next door
And hope someone'll recognize me
Offer to buy me a stiff drink
I'm an albatross, yeah no one does
I stagger to the fast food lobby
Drunk and weak
I order food
And fall asleep
And the cook wakes me up and asks me to leave
Catherine called on the third day
Says "I'm still mad as hell at you
But I need to know that you're okay
You paint dad like a damn saint
And you know that I loved him too
But he drank himself to death the same way
I won't let
It happen twice
No not again
It's time to get
Up and fix your mess"
It's been a decade since I thought about drowning in the sea
When everybody in my life had either died or left me
I should feel lucky now that someone thinks that I'm worth saving
I bought a flight home out of John Wayne. Could you please come get me?
Southern State Parkway
No one talks the whole ride home
Colin won't even look my way
But my thoughts are still drifting
To the Jim Beam hidden in my coat
The bottles I stole from the airplane
Blood and spit
I'm sneaking out
Lying about it
I admit
I gotta quit
