i don't drink to forget i drink so i can suffer twice as much cuz in this world of pain nothing breaks the memory of your touch what was i thinking i should have kept drinking to flood you face from my mind but now it's over and i'm sober enough to know you fucked my mind love can seem like slow death if it's not returned you will feel your body and soul start to burn with desire and unrelenting pain the tears they cloud my eyes i bite my tongue till i taste my blood so you won't hear my cries hiding in my private darkness i put you out of my mind my fear of death being overcome by my hatred for this life