it's not supposed to feel right and broken at the same time a thousand lights that dance out of my heart to you each time what do you have to ask me maybe then you don't feel the thousand pins and needles that i feel near you each time it's just my mouth it's just a word and what is that and what is that how does it hurt? i'm not supposed to need what i've never had to know it a thousand thoughts that crawl out of the dark to lie with me i'm not supposed to say it the way my head replays it a thousand words and none of them that i can say out loud but out loud is how it feels is what you hide just as real just as real