It's almost like you had it planned It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said "Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time" And what was I supposed to do? I was stuck in between you and a hard place We won't talk about the hard place But I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life It's how you wanted it to be It's like you played a joke on me And I lost a friend In the end And I think that I cried for days But now that seems light years away And I'm never going back To who I was Cause I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life I think that I cried for days But now that seems light years away And I'm never going back To who I was Cause I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life That life seems like light years away Light years away And that life seems like light years away Light years away