I'll buy some cigarettes and smoke them on the beach I'll walk home alone and douse my whole bedroom in bleach Because I feel safe behind these four brick walls But my skin's too thin, so can I borrow yours? It's just enough, it's just enough To let you walk out of that door Knowing you left your head at home I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep 'Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up Still here and it's all because of me Because I wished it was bright So I'll just wait for the light I'm sick of hearing I'm wrong Instead of hearing I'm right I'm sick of hearing that everything is fine All I ever wanted to be was Safe in the comfort of my own company All that you ever needed from me Was for me to be conscious and act like there's nothing wrong I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep 'Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up Still here and it's all because of me I fell asleep with the weight of the world Crushing me until I'm gone, until I'm gone I'll close my eyes but I haven't dreamed in weeks I'll board up all of my windows and sedate myself with sleep 'Cause I'm not giving up, but not getting up Still here and it's all because of me