I don't trust myself because I'm sick of being lied to Look in the mirror my reflection seeing right through All of my issues and mistakes are staring back at me Why don't you take the pistol put one in ya agony Depression be messin' with my sanity Repression be stressin' my humanity I'm to the point where I don't really give a fuck I'd rather drown in gasoline and light the whole thing up Take a picture I might not be here tomorrow All the time that I have has been wasted used or borrowed Tear it up and let my memory fade You don't need no reminders of the memories made I'm feeling sorry for myself again Searching for some answers maybe I should just phone a friend But I just lock it all away Save all of these questions for another rainy day The weather's gettin' cold outside yeah And I don't wanna say goodnight no But everything goes away I pray to God when I do there's a soul to take And I'm feelin' like I lost my way Thinking they'll be hell to pay And I'm hangin' by a broken string Not noticing these broken wings yeah I never thought that I was good enough And any second now I could erupt Yeah suicide has always been the back up When everything finally starts to stack up I try to stay positive. have a lot to live for All of them supportive I don't think that they could give more And I appreciate it from the depths of my soul But my soul is not the problem it's my head on the pole Some tell me that it's chemical There's somethin' wrong physical Opinions always plentiful But this shit is gettin' critical and damn I'm cynical That I'm gone step up out this hell and see the light Will there be a happy ending will I be alright Or will this demon finally start to speak Whisper in my ear it's time to go to sleep The weather's gettin' cold outside yeah And I don't wanna say goodnight no But everything goes away I pray to God when I do there's a soul to take And I'm feelin' like I lost my way Thinking they'll be hell to pay And I'm hangin' by a broken string Not noticing these broken wings yeah