Mary turns the pillow round The cold side of the bed Shuts her eyes and drifts away Into a dream again That she'll come back Her coffee cup wilts in the heat The traffic crawls outside She puts the truck in park As the tears start to well in her eyes Says pull yourself together mar' As she pops it into drive And goes to work Who's here for her to love? What's this heart breaking up? Questions and answers for no one at all Mary tries to turn back the clock At the desk a photo frame Her birthday last september That old rhyme 30 days April june and november Memory has a funny way Of knocking out your stomach She lays the picture down And heads out on her lunch break Never coming back Who's here for her to love? What's this heart breaking up? Questions and answers for no one at all Mary waits to run down the clock Hangs her jacket on the chair The pile of unread letters Scattered on the table there Where she used to eat breakfast Now it's microwavable If nothing so substantial Mary numb and honestly Never known as fragile Burns the pile of consolations Lets the cat out for the evening Pours a beer into a clean mug And switches off the tv I always see you in my nightmares If i could switch you know i'd do it I miss you on your birthday I miss you every single day I miss you and i hate myself For living without you I hate myself for so many things And it tires me out But i love you and i hope you knew that And she goes to bed