I tried to act as if I cared
I tried to act as if I didn't want to get out
I wasn't careful what I asked for and I got it but I hung on for 21 months

49 days sitting, standing, not sleeping and going crazy in a corner 
49 days, my balls turned to brass and I finally won out
I did 21 months. the 21 strangest months I've ever lived

I think about all the sick things that I said
And what I did, and what was done to me 
And through it all I grew strong

Made my stand
Learned to live
I still live what I learned in 21 months