Little blue pills to help you sleep I don't like my dreams So I prefer to drink I'm clawing at my chest But the real problem's in my head At least that's what you say There's no such thing as love and freedom There's only money and sex Addiction and depression, poverty And all affection is misguided The lies keep building up I am so tired, my bones do ache There's no time to rest For now we'll have to wait And, finally, when I can lay with you in bed For some reason, I'll drink alone instead My decisions don't involve me anymore Just one more taste And I'll accept this is my life My cancerous companion always does its job right And a job's a funny thing 'cause it's their money that you need To pay them back when someone's charging you to breathe Nauseous and sweating Coughing 'til my throat bleeds And I'm shaking so goddamn bad That I can barely hold this notepad To read the letter that you left me to remind me Everything turns out okay